Я ищу.
Being kind and being caring are two very different things. Kindness is, if anything, a form of politeness. You are not necessarily affected by the either existence or state of existence of something you are being kind to. Kindness, just like any form of politeness, is an admittence that an object you are being kind to exists. Caring is different. It is not merely an admittence of existence of something, but also of the connection to it on some level. When you care about something, you are affected by the fact that something you care about exists, and even by how it exists.